Do you suffer from Time anxiety? The fear of wasting time. I have this trait in myself, I plan my things and task deliberately and ensure to accomplish it in sufficient time. Yesterday only, I came to realize this thing in myself, I do fear wasting time. It sucks me. I can’t boast that I am productive all the day. But yes, I try my best to use my time in a meaningful and fruitful way. Though yes, at times, I end up in wasting some time. And I guess it’s totally normal. But yes, the problem being, I curse myself for losing that “some” time.
Yesterday, I had lots of work and I determined myself to do it. But due to some reasons, all of a sudden, I got another work to do and it took me a lot of time. And then I got exhausted and couldn’t do something else in a better way. And I was annoyed by myself. The main problem is that the thing bothered me till I slept at night. Even if I have nothing to do, I try to keep myself engaged in reading or writing or something else. I try to make sure I’m doing something than sitting idle. Of course, life is too short to waste it. Whenever I read a book, I’m always in desire of more and more. No matter I do something well, it is less for me. It may sound good to you, but it’s not that good as it seems.
Discussing about the concern of being productive, yes that’s good- it helps is utilizing time the best way as possible. But once it takes the form of fear and anxiety, it’s bad. I illustrate my example only- whatever good I may do, I end up in blaming myself for not doing best, that I could have done better with things and time. The anxiety make you stick to the fact about ruminating about one thing only, if you created the value or not. And it’s not a sign of positivity. We should be content about what we do. If we enjoyed something, it ain’t a waste of time. You can’t always make value by getting from things. At times, it’s about what you feel inner side. I resolute myself to do things the way I have been, be content and find peace and happiness in it. After all, whatever I do, I am putting my best efforts to do so it’s not about the value, it’s about peace I get in it.
Are you also anxious about the flow of time and wasting it, if it happens?